I feel like I'm losing my best friend, I feel like I'm losing my girlfriend. I feel like I'm losing myself. I feel like at total disappointment to both Gene and Brian. I don't sleep well. Honestly, we're not talking days, or weeks or even months. We're talking years. I dont think I slept well since before the 8th grade. I feel like whenever I get done with work, and pouring myself into my friends, anything else like working out or doing immersion assignments or whatever is like being asked to drive to Boston from here on fumes. Maybe I'll quit my internship, or .... I don't know. Would you like to know what I always think about? No matter what I'm doing, I'm not doing it good enough, I mean it. Everything I do, from hygiene to my interning, to my relationships, to what I do at the gym, I'm not doing it good enough. Whose standards? I don't know. Help? Anyone? Someone?
I love all of you
-Chuck
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About Me
- Sam Vimes
- I love music, I am an intern/slave, I am Straight Edge ,I went to Austria for a very very long time. I Believe in God's unfailing grace and love, I believe that The Church, at least in the U.S, Kills it's own wounded and is wrongly persecuting those that don't fit into their idea of holiness.
3 comments:
You're not losing me, except maybe to Pennsylvania for a few days. But, if it makes you feel better, I think you're an awesome boyfriend. I hope you know you can always call me to talk or anything...
You're doing ok sweetie, despite the fact you don't feel like you are. You'll be fine. You're in my thoughts. If you need to talk to someone, I'm always here. Really. :)
If any of us started doing anything that well, we'd forget we need Christ.
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