Thursday, November 13, 2008
Coming Home Early/Notable Things I Have Seen and Witnessed/Thoughts and Musings
But anyways
Here's a list of things I've seen/done/witnessed/etc in the past weeks of tour in no particular order:
-The Grand Canyon
-Canyonlands National Park
-The Painted Desert
-The Rockies
-New Mexican Desert
-The Pacific Ocean
-The Atlantic Ocean
-The Gulf Of Mexico
-People we've never met open their homes and feed us.
-Lasting Friendships
-After praying for Red's(the drummer of Man of Sorrows) Wife to miraculously get up and leave the hospital, free of all sickness, getting a call from his wife saying that she left the hospital, free of all sickness.
-Sun Records, Yes The Sun Records where Elvis and Johnny Cash among others were discovered.
living in a van with three other dudes and a dog is interesting. Basically I'm married to them. I've certainly matured, and been toughened up by it. I've learned a lot. I'm going to miss tour a lot, and can't wait to tour myself. I've made a lot of friends who I miss dearly. Sometimes sarcasm can get tiring. I love everyone we've toured with and all the dudes I tour with. I'm going to miss them when I'm gone. I miss all of you too. I'll be home soon
With Love
-Chuck
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
for the sounded alarms and the sirens of ships wrecked
this is old
this is me breaking me free
from scathing eyes
and public thought
this is opinion
honest and raw
this is one man's search for G-d
this is one man's search for himself
for answers
for questions
for the peace within himself
for Christ in the every day
past bullshit
and phony
public personas
put on
in an effort
to fit in
past cliché'd
recylcled
unoriginality
Thursday, July 3, 2008
RE:lationships
like-I-love-you-now-please-never-leave-me-ness
Which makes me wonder why do we even date at all. The obvious answer being that we are all hormone drunk sweaty teens tricked into believing that our hearts should be followed and really do have all the answers. The other being that dating, holding hands and having someone to cling to gives us all a warm fuzzy feeling that seems to fill a void in us somewhere. Some people are addicted to that, and can't go to long without trying to fill it with someone else. Whether the succeed or fail is not the point, the point is rather that the are addicted to it. I think that void is actually two that overlap some and are right next to each other one is marked G-d the other that special someone. Now G-d can and should fill both and I believe that he will and will be better for you than any boy or girl ever could. I guess I just wanted you guys to know that. That G-d can fill the void, and he wants to, and that please let him start to fill it before starting to fill it with the special person too. I wanted you all to know that sometimes holding on to relationships long after their expiration dates or injecting more life into them because you're afraid of change isn't healthy, that bouncing around from and through relationships isn't good, that rebounds just cause more pain for everyone involved. That random play and friends with benefits always end with one person violating the agreement and becoming to emotionally invested. That your physical acts, all of them, not just sex, should be kept sacred and never cheapened. I want you all to consider G-d first in the relationship and the other person second. I wanted you all to know that when it's over that you can and should move on learn what you can, thank G-d for it, and continue on your journey. Realize that your love was good for a time. Don't linger. Please realize that I'm still a man and I recently ended a relationship, and right now have a girl or two that haunt my dreams and fill me with a longing for that very type of relationship i talked about so this is for me as much as it is for all of you. I know I'm a hypocrite, aren't we all? I also ask that if you respond to this, please be kind I write this with a heavy heart, not an angry one. with the knowledge that we can all learn from everything here even if we aren't going through it right now. if you feel like I'm calling you out specifically, look into your own heart and see if there is truth.
May the LORD our G-d bless you and keep you.
I love you all, yes, even you.
-Chuck
Monday, June 2, 2008
Might I Say Sir, You Look Dashing This Evening
Throw up
G-d I need to throw up
this guilt
in my gut
is threatening to explode
the feeling is building
and I cant stop
killing bottles of
bitterness to shut it up
I need to throw up
I need to throw up
I need to
throw up this pain
or
else
I'll
die
Monday, March 17, 2008
Loss
I love all of you
-Chuck
Thursday, March 6, 2008
The vines, the cancer. I die, I suffocate.
and hurts me at my best
I have nothing to pull me up
Where is my anchor?
Where is my hope?
I'm choking on this cancer
watch as it consumes my throat
this is longer of me
it is a weed, a growth from my chest
I am consumed in its vines
my legs cannot move
my arms pinned to my sides
I make a desperate last lunge
the vine with life of its own pulls it back
I am suffocating
you cannot see me
I am no longer me
I am part of the undergrowth
Sunday, March 2, 2008
I tried to steal the moon from the sky..........
May the Shalom of G-d fall on all of you who read this.
-Chuck
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Oide Fuchs
Mann o Mann Helga
"good if your done then be done and let us be and dont keep telling us were wrong or you think were wrong cuz you dont know who we are and we know whats right for us you dont know what right for us. whats right for one person may not be right for someone else. we are not "your problem" that you have to "deal with" so just let us live our lives the way we see is best."
Is it just me? Or was this written angrily, or attacking-ly? I think so, and its like, I've poured so much of myself into this whole situation eg: several conversations with my Best friend about it some a few hours long, and a few conversations with his fiancee one of which was an hour long, also I;ve had many many conversations with mutual friends and my parents on the subject. Now Dane is thankful about my personal effort in this front, but this is what I get for draining myself to emotional exhaustion from his GF? Uncool. Very Uncool. I mean Wheres the love man? Nowhere apparently. Ugh... she just logged on to AIM. If she IMs me, I'm going to ignore her. I feel hurt and attacked. Anyways
Peace and Love
Chuck
Monday, February 25, 2008
Spent
Thursday, February 7, 2008
I, am Legend
The morning has been kicking my ass as of late. It's a little annoying, this morning I didnt have to be up till 10:00, My body, however, had different plans. It all but kicked me out of bed at 8:30. Anyways. I've started reading a book called Postmodern Youth Ministry. I have weekly essays due. I had a week to read the first 2 chapters and write the essay, they're due every tuesday. I did it all monday, after dinner. Yeah, I'm lazy. I'm at church right now. I hope Em can stop later on. Anyways. I need to write a new song. I need to, things I write have a tendency to pick me not the other way around. We'll see. Listen to Sons of God, they're in my top friends.
I love you all, even you.
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Charlie Chaplin Speaks
-Chuck
Friday, January 25, 2008
Ezekiel 33:4-6
4 then whoever hears the sound of the trumpet and does not take warning, if the sword comes and takes him away, his blood shall be on his own head. 5 He heard the sound of the trumpet, but did not take warning; his blood shall be upon himself. But he who takes warning will save his life. 6 But if the watchman sees the sword coming and does not blow the trumpet, and the people are not warned, and the sword comes and takes any person from among them, he is taken away in his iniquity; but his blood I will require at the watchman’s hand.’